After a long time..

..of doing nothing with my blog, I feel like writing again. Just a bit. I know this feeling will be away again soon :)

As I grow older, I see the people around me are doing the same. They're changing too. Some change in a good way. Some don't. I'm starting to realise that I don't have any sense of what's real and what's not. When are others real? When am I myself? I wouldn't know. I guess that I'm only myself when I'm honest and when I say what I think. But that's not what everyone does. Sometimes saying what you really think can hurt other people. That happens a lot.
I hate it that I'm not totally myself. I don't know why I just can't get it done, to act like I want to. Yeah sure, I act crazy, I may even seem childish (where's the line between crazy and childish?) but I'm not really me. I don't say anything back to the bitch that's telling me how to speak English (she can't even say the th-thing right, I can so she should really shut up), I don't say anything when other people make fun of someone when they shouldn't. That's when I'm not me. And when I really should be. I guess I'm just scared that people won't like me anymore. That the bitch will start hating me (and you don't want that), or that the people-making-fun-of-someone-when-they-shouldn't won't like me anymore. Have they ever really liked me? Or just the person I'm trying to be?

I always want everyone to like me. I know that's not going to happen. I have friends. I should be happy, right?

So. After this bit of acting-sad and telling-a-computer-about-my-feelings I'm going to get back to my homework. Well, that's actually not true. Har har.

Let the good times roll

Who am I?

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Hello,

I just found out that I have 4 followers. I'm really surprised! Thank you ;) What I also found out is that I haven't been posting for a really long while. So here's a post again. It's just that I only post when I feel like it. I don't want to have that feeling that I always have to post. It should be all spontaneous.

I've just come back from my aunt's house in Den Haag (the Hague) and my other aunt, unkle and nieces' house. I had a really good time. Apart from falling on my backside (combinate flip-flops, a supermarket and a wet floor) which took me 2 days to recover from, and the fighting I did with my sister. It's just that she doesn't help my mum and me when we're doing some cleaning in the house... Leaves the bed undone for the next person... Screaming and yelling too much (the neighbours there must hate us) :( but the sea was nice, the weather was on some days... So still nice.

Me, my sister and my aunt went to Amsterdam's Albert Kuip for some shopping. I love markets, and especially that market. Everything is much cheaper (you do have to watch out for the fakes) and there's lots of choice. I bought flipflops (from 20 to 5 euros) there and large socks (6 urs) :) I'd been thinking about cowboyboots a lot, so I went looking for them there. We couldn't find goodquality ones, so my aunt took us to the PC Hooftstraat (expensive, but sales are sometimes okay) and went to dr. Adams. There I found my boots :) they were in the sale, from 140 to 100 to 80 euros :) So I bought them! Now I can't have anything for a while. And probably I won't get another pair of boots this winter :( which is really unfair as my mum only gave me 30 euros. But whatever.

I'm just having a hard time combining them. I think they're okay with tucked-in jeans and a neutral top. Also my miniskirt, tights and again neutral top look good with them. My aunt told me that she thought that boots with shorts/a skirt and no tights whatsoever were a bit ordinary/vulgar (don't know how to say it) but that if I did it well it could be okay. So,you can see I went looking for some cowboy-booted looks :P

If you have anything to say about the boots, or cowbooted looks, please tell me :) Thanks!

Anne

In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high (takes time to load..)

I designed this dress myself, and made it together with my aunt Sandra (she did the most of the work) It was so much fun to do! I put it on lookbook because I wanted to know what people thought of it. There were three hypers and two commentors until now, both commenters/tors were superenthusiastic and they got me all happy! :D

Yeah this takes time to load.

Hmm I wish my hair was really that blond. Thanks canon!

Let me show you this boring picture of me.

I know.

It's selfish.

I'm sorry.


You have to know that I didn't put a heart around it because I wanted to. No, just because I can't make pictures of myself without a mirror. And my other mirror isn't nice enough ;p and my parents' mirror is too big. And I like the look of it. And I'm childish. So is my room. But. I'll get a new room! 4x as big as my current one. And it won't be childish. I'm going to get a nice mirror for my new room next saturday. So don't worry. The next mirror-photo will be with a new mirror :D

Lookbook

So I found this amazing website. With all these unique looks and people :D They post these great photographs with their looks which gives me loads of inspiration and lets me wish that I had money again waha :P

I am going to Amsterdam in August, so maybe I can find some nice vintage shops there and get what I'd like!

You can visit the website here. you can only join if you get an invite code. Which I'm trying to find :P

Sorry for not posting for such a long time. I'm happy to say that my holidays have finally started. They've started really well!

Monday I went tot the beach, Scheveningen, with LenaJuliaMelissa. They were great and it was great.

I found out that my dad not only has a Canon EOS 5D but also EOS 5. Also I found out that I love the micro-lens.

I feel like my life's changing. I think it really is. I now know how friends are supposed to be, what's not right... I guess I'm growing up.

Hmm I know I'm a bad blogger. Haha but anyway... I like it and that's what's most important. :P

Anne

Photos of the garden & things in it

I made lots of photos (well for me it's a lot) this weekend, and someone asked me to post them so I'm posting them :P

I don't think they're really good. That's because my garden is a thing with flowers and insects, nothing more nothing less, and because my photoshop-coloring skills are not so good. :( If you're looking for great photos, don't stick around here. Go here. http://lavender1992.deviantart.com/ these are great photos with great colours.

OW I just visited deviantart again and now really feel my colours are bad. Bad bad bad. So I'm going to get back to photoshop RIGHT now and post the photos later. Tell me if they're not good. Please. I really do want to know.

SO. In the end I just uploaded actions. I still don't think they're good. But whatever! Click read more for some of the photos!

Whaaa CS5!!

So, I was just thinking about using one of these 30-days-trials of photoshop, when I saw... CS5! Wooh! Right now I'm downloading the trial! Of course al legal, from the adobe-website. It's taking some loooong time to load.

I made some photographs of the house and its features with my father's big Canon :D I love that thing! I only have a small ehmm... I don't even know what it's called.. whaha! It's nice, but it's just not... Perfect. Which the Canon is.

I'll tell you about CS5 when I'm using it, and the photos I'll post later today. Feel free to comment and tell me about your website, interests.. Anything you want to get rid of right here :P as I don't know many people on blogger I'm looking for them daily.

Anne

:P

My first post in 2010. I've been a great non-poster the last year. Now, it's summer... And I'm here again. Enjoy, or don't, your choice.

See you soon!

YEEEY

I've got an applejuice tap. I reaaally don't know how to say it in English,. bar is definitely not the right word.

YEEEEEEY!

Anyway, my new website is doing EXTREMELY well!

http://img42.imageshack.us/img42/2036/stats.png

that's the stats, that link. it started counting 6 days ago. about.

so now I already had about 90 unique visitors! From USA, Canada, New York, Finland, Lots of Dutch people.... and even from france!

Today

Today I had a drink with L. So we're having contact again. Or whatever it's called in English :P

I went to town with mom for lunch, and to bring some books back to the library, and after that L. came and we walked around and ate icecream and talked. She said she was anxious to tell P. about us 'having contact' again, but she still was going to do it somehow. I'm glad.

She told me that P. stopped eating as much as she did before, and now was eating almost nothing. O, god. And she drinks beer now. She doesn't smoke. haha. hum.

I sent P. a goodbye-letter, of course she didn't reply or something, didn't expect that anyway.

Okay, now I'm going to work on my layout for the website.

bye, Anne.

Off..

I probably won't post for the coming weeks. I'm being busy with my new website (yeah, I know, I already have 2 websites and a forum..)

well, whatever. This is the website:

http://www.feasible.tk/, still coming. preview is here: NO I THINK I'M NOT POSTING A PREVIEW. IT'S BAD WHEN PEOPLE SEE IT WHEN IT'S NOT YET READY. THE FIRST IMPRESSION SHOULD BE THE BEST YOU CAN GET.

haha capslock

buybye xD

Back from UK

Jeaaaah ;D

I felt soo inspired, laying on my trampoline,

and all I come up with is this.

haha. well, this is the one I use the most.

i mean the nail polish huah.

Photos of the Cat in the Garden

Yesterday I just went making photos, and couldn't find any nice objects any more when my cat Pookietijger (we call her Pookie) came out of the hedge.
most of them are not really sharp, because she moved a lot. haha :P

uploading..

just click them to see them bigger.

Change

For the ones who were here before,

YES I did change my layout. or 'sjabloon' as blogger-blogspot calls it.

Because I like the darkblue colour with the white letters on it,

Icecream :D

I made this icecream about a week ago, it was D E L I C I O U S.

haha :P yamyum.

and yesterday I made this cake.

it's a bit too dry, but it's nice.

English

I'm going to switch over to English. I'm sorry for all the mistakes I will make :P

By the way, I'll be off from 30 july to 14 august.

To England. haha

I'm going to research the cottage &hotel :D and put it down here. oh the whole journey! jeeej xD

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first we'll go to Calais (France) by car. There we are going to go to Dover by train (through chunnel)

Here we'll go into the train:

We'll survive a mile from the coast, in a Bed&Breakfast called Camelot Lodge Hotel. East Sussex.

http://www.camelotlodgehotel.co.uk/

tamtiedam. they have a piano there, but I'm not sure if I dare to play.

NEXT day we'll travel further, to somewhere near Plymouth, the edge of Dartmoor National Park to our holidayhouse.

can't find any pictures myself, dad knows where they are but I don't want to go downstairs.

well, and after that back to our hotel/b&b and back home.

AAAAH

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oh damn, dat had ik dus nog niet gezien XDXD