After a long time..

..of doing nothing with my blog, I feel like writing again. Just a bit. I know this feeling will be away again soon :)

As I grow older, I see the people around me are doing the same. They're changing too. Some change in a good way. Some don't. I'm starting to realise that I don't have any sense of what's real and what's not. When are others real? When am I myself? I wouldn't know. I guess that I'm only myself when I'm honest and when I say what I think. But that's not what everyone does. Sometimes saying what you really think can hurt other people. That happens a lot.
I hate it that I'm not totally myself. I don't know why I just can't get it done, to act like I want to. Yeah sure, I act crazy, I may even seem childish (where's the line between crazy and childish?) but I'm not really me. I don't say anything back to the bitch that's telling me how to speak English (she can't even say the th-thing right, I can so she should really shut up), I don't say anything when other people make fun of someone when they shouldn't. That's when I'm not me. And when I really should be. I guess I'm just scared that people won't like me anymore. That the bitch will start hating me (and you don't want that), or that the people-making-fun-of-someone-when-they-shouldn't won't like me anymore. Have they ever really liked me? Or just the person I'm trying to be?

I always want everyone to like me. I know that's not going to happen. I have friends. I should be happy, right?

So. After this bit of acting-sad and telling-a-computer-about-my-feelings I'm going to get back to my homework. Well, that's actually not true. Har har.

Hmm I wish my hair was really that blond. Thanks canon!

Let me show you this boring picture of me.

I know.

It's selfish.

I'm sorry.


You have to know that I didn't put a heart around it because I wanted to. No, just because I can't make pictures of myself without a mirror. And my other mirror isn't nice enough ;p and my parents' mirror is too big. And I like the look of it. And I'm childish. So is my room. But. I'll get a new room! 4x as big as my current one. And it won't be childish. I'm going to get a nice mirror for my new room next saturday. So don't worry. The next mirror-photo will be with a new mirror :D

YEEEY

I've got an applejuice tap. I reaaally don't know how to say it in English,. bar is definitely not the right word.

YEEEEEEY!

Anyway, my new website is doing EXTREMELY well!

http://img42.imageshack.us/img42/2036/stats.png

that's the stats, that link. it started counting 6 days ago. about.

so now I already had about 90 unique visitors! From USA, Canada, New York, Finland, Lots of Dutch people.... and even from france!

I felt soo inspired, laying on my trampoline,

and all I come up with is this.

haha. well, this is the one I use the most.

i mean the nail polish huah.

AAAAH

Click here to read Entertainment Weekly's exclusive preview of the first chapter of Breaking Dawn.

oh damn, dat had ik dus nog niet gezien XDXD

:P

die heb ik. best lekker . wel.

blalbalblsldADSa

blaaat.

Long Hair?

hihi, ik bedoel maar XD

Printscreen

sorry, het kan niet beter. het is ook maar een screencap hee.

gewoon PRINTSCREEN gedaan bij dinges (hoe heet dat ook al weer, voorfilmpjedinges)

van new moon.

ik zat me bij twilight al af te vragen hoe geweldig hij eruit zou zien met kort haar :P

Sunglasses xD

ohmy, ik zag net toch GEWELDIGE actions @ deviantart.com,,

http://lustdrunk.deviantart.com/art/Photoshop-Action-Set-o2-64042831

maar whatever, ik heb een 6-pack gemaakt xD een paar zijn actions, (meeste) en de rest heb ik zelf gemaakt. of half tut, half ik. :P

A bit of my own thinkages xD

Alle partijen zijn voor klimaatverandering. GroenLinks zal, denk ik, dit het beste ten uitvoer brengen. GroenLinks vind dat Europa groen en duurzaam moet zijn. Dat vind ik ook. GroenLinks is het óók eens met de meeste standpunten van de PvdA hierboven genoemd en is ook heel duidelijk vóór het homo-huwelijk. Iedereen moet de keuze hebben zelf te mogen weten met wie hij/zij trouwt. GroenLinks is niet liberaal maar wel voor vrijheid. GroenLinks is ook niet confessionalistisch maar wel voor het uiten van je eigen mening. Daarom kies ik voor GroenLinks.

„Iedereen moet de vrijheid hebben zich te ontplooien en zijn eigen keuzes te maken. Mensen hebben verschillende leefstijlen en levensovertuigingen. Je mag zelf kiezen voor een maatpak, een hoofddoek of een piercing met roze driehoek in je navel, zolang dat een keuze is zonder dwang en drang van je omgeving.”

Inderdaad, toen sliep ik al ja.

HAATHAATAA.

Ok, ik zal even overschrijven wat ik laatst opschreef. Ja, het klinkt raar, maar ik was een een.
nou ja, nogal rare bui-

melissa niet lezen! haha.

Oohh ik heb toch echt zohoon knoeiende schijt aan *** I swear..



laaaaaat maar.